I wish it would rain. I love the rain. Especially when I am depressed.
That way, if I cry, nobody can tell. Nobody would know.
That way, nobody would have something else to criticize.
That way, nobody could point to me and tell me I'm weak.
Maybe I should ignore the sadness. Maybe?
The White Stripes say it all best. I'm going to use quotes from all of their songs. I think it works.
"You think not telling is the same as not lying, don't you?
Then I guess not feeling is the same as not crying to you." - Red Rain
Should I just forget feeling sad and pretend it never happened? But then wouldn't it just build up? Wouldn't I just snap? Wont I anyway?
"So now you're mad and denying the truth." - The Denial Twist
I wish I had more people to talk to. Really. I know most of the time I am horrible and cruel to everyone outside of my circle of friends, but at times like this, I just wish I had more of a selection of people to talk to. I can't get in touch with so many of the people I want to talk to at this time of night, and I want some kind of input on this. So for you all who are there, I appreciate it. I appreciate you letting me come and whine to you about how my life sucks.
"I get my friend when I need one
I need someone to be one
I take anybody I can get
And sometimes I wanna call you
And I feel like a pet
And I'm lonely, but I ain't that lonely yet" -I'm Lonely(But I Ain't That Lonely Yet)
Well, I am too tired to type anything else, so I'll probably post again tomorrow.
"In the morning
When I'm standing in the red, red rain."
--Scottie: Don't Count On It.
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umm, I didn't realize that the picture you drew in health had truth to it. I'm sorry I didn't think that much of it. I mean, I haven't been this depresed in a really long time. I get "sad" a lot, but not uberly depressed. I wish I could see you this weekend. I know this will be a useless wish, but I really hope you feel better soon. People really do love you. Including myself. And as a friend, I'm not lesbian, I really don't want you to get that idea... that would be really awkward... like it is right now...
Ok, hope all will be well on Tuesday
Thanks Jené. That makes me feel a lot better. And the picture I drew in Health, which one? The one with the masks? I am going to upload that to my blog once Conor gets off of the computer with the scanner. I felt perfectly fine during the week, it was just yesterday. Bleh.
--Scottie: She wants to see X-3.
No, the one of me when you sang and you were like, "Jene cannot be sad because Scottie had already called that emotion." That picture.
Your are Nice. And so is your site! Maybe you need some more pictures. Will return in the near future.
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