She never slows down

Senior retreat isn't something I can put into words.
Once I get the video of the skit, though, that will come directly here.

Basically, what I have to say is this: As much as I try not to, I have always judged people. And I like my friends and I am totally comfortable with them and we don't judge each other. It took my small group (specifically Cecelia, Stacy, and Nina) to show me that I judge people. I never really thought about it before. I went into my discussion groups, though, thinking, "oh geez. why did Ms Harkins give me these people for my group?" But you know, I think God made it that way so that I would come to the realization that these girls are all awesome. And they were the ones that I really, really did not get along with. but we talked about everything that there is to talk about. And some of them cried and we all wrote affirmation cards for each other and it was just....weird. I like everyone in my class. I know about them and I get them. So that's pretty great.

Anyway. That's what I think was the most important thing that I got out of this. I don't have a problem with anybody in my class. Not Claire, not Abbey, nobody.


The skit. The song is so amazing. I think that my favorite lines are "She won't make a sound. Alone in this fight with herself and the fears whispering if she stands she'll fall down. She wants to be found. The only way out is through everything she's running from. She wants to give up and lie down." In the skit, that's when the girl is running into the magazines and they are trying to change how she looks. But I think the words are kind of hopeful. I told this to a few friends and my small group. I think that they are so hopeful because I know that I am not in that situation. And none of us are. All any of us have to do is shout out for help when we fall down and there is someone to help. We can shout out too. I don't think any of us are afraid now. Like, of anything. We will give each other what we need.

And nothing you guys could ever do could make me love you less.

---Scottie: stand through your pain. you wont drown. and one day, what's lost can be found.