Friday, August 28, 2009

I think I'm allergic to myself.

I don't understand the college kid thing. I mean, I can avoid it at Franciscan for the most part, but never entirely I guess. Maybe it's because I am crazy introverted or something, but I don't think it's fun to belt country in a huge truck and scream at strangers in a town where they are potentially armed. Maybe it's because I've stepped foot in Baltimore. Whatever. I just don't see the appeal of acting like I never left high school. It didn't appeal to me then either.

I don't want to skip arm in arm into wal mart, shouting and giggling. As much as it seems like I might not, I care what people think of me. And it's NOT that I want them to think I'm cool. That is SO not it, but I want them to respect me. I, personally, would find it hard to have the same amount of respect for young adults who skip around screaming and running into things when they are completely sober as I do for someone who can keep their composure and understand that other people don't care for their antics.

And now I know they think that I'm a freak. And it's probably true. I know I'm a total loner. I'd rather just sit in my room and read or watch the Green Mile than go to that party they are going to now.

---Scottie: I don't want to die in the hospital. You've gotta take me back outside.

3 comments:

rocco said...

I really get you. But seeing as I'm still in high school, and a catholic one at that, I can't exactly relate quite as much as I'd like. As much as I admire this outlook, it is good to live a little and have some crazy sorts of fun. For sure not ALL the time, by any means. Not even most of the time. Just sometimes. You know?

rocco said...

Oh. When I said I get you, I meant that I get what you're saying. People are too intricate to actually totally understand anyone. Just thought I'd clarify that.

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